resolutions

I don't make them

there are so many things that I could resolve to do

only to let myself down when I fail to follow through on any of them

so I don't bother

on the other hand I could make a handful of self-serving and indulgent ones

but that's contrary to the nature of the damn thing

of course I want to golf more and lower my handicap

(as if three rounds a week isn't enough)

or go out and fish more

who doesn't want that?

nevertheless I intend to do just those things

just without resolving to do so

thus revealing what a selfish and self-centered bastard I truly am

whoopsie!

I guess I just did that

I do want to continue to do whatever I can to help my friends and family

and gift a few lucky folks w/ a nice fishing pole

do what I can to become a better husband

a better cook

expand my palate and repertoire of techniques

fix one more meal a week

pleasing my wife coming home from work 

to a home cooked meal w/ the enticing aroma that entails

my walk w/ Christ is always a struggle

necessary as it is to my growth as a man and a Christian

forgiveness is in my nature

though my vices are always a battle

(if you know me you know what I'm talking about)

having said that 

I should smoke less drink less stop cussing work harder and more often

spend less exercise more make better choices and decisions

indulge the wife instead of myself

watch less football and golf on tv

do more to serve the Lord

and follow so many other paths to improve myself

yet to resolve to do so is to set myself up for failure

and I won't do that

but apparently I know what I need to do